I am Tasting Bitter-Sweet

The semester is over! I ended up with four A's and one B...I am quit pleased with that. The funny thing about that is that I think this is the best semester I have had in college yet it is also the semester that I did the least amount of work. Or maybe it wasn't that I did less work, but rather that I stressed a lot less than I did before. I have felt a lot more free this semester, a lot more open to life in the moment. It has been amazing. Although I did well, I am glad it is over. Summer is much needed in regards to school work.

This year I have made a lot of really great friends. I have learned from them and felt more like they were my family than my friends. These people are the reason I am not glad the semester is over. We are all going different ways. Some people are staying in Auburn, some are going home, some are going to another country, and some to other places in the U.S. I will be spending my summer at camp Icthus in Bryson City, North Carolina. One part of me is extremely excited about this and is looking forward to what God is going to do in all of our lives, but the other part of me is sad about leaving. 

My entire life I have always been afraid of missing things. When I was a little kid I would wait as long as I could to go to sleep because I was afraid really cool stuff would happen when I was asleep. This is how I feel about this summer. Everyone's lives are going to go on and I feel like I am going to be missing something. And I guess the truth about this is that I will be missing something here, but another truth is that I will be experiencing something AMAZING where I will be. So I have to remember that. I can't live in the past semester or the past year; I can't anticipate what the fall will hold; I have to live where I am this summer. I have to be fully present in order to receive what God has for me and to be used in the way he wants to use me. I know the next few weeks I will experience many emotions: happiness, sadness, nervousness, joy, etc., but in all of those things I find God. I know that if I choose to let him he will grow me and show me amazing things this summer.